I know I haven’t posted in this blog since my first post. Life is the reason but this is something I wanted to share and felt this was a good place to put it.
I wanted to share something that happened right before Remi was born that has been on my mind and heart ever since. I could have done a much better job writing this but I wanted to just get it out because it is weighing on me to share…
First, a quick rundown of the events that morning that will catch us up…
– We get to the hospital… Check-in.
– Skyler gets situated.
– They give us the run down on how the next hour is going to go.
– They walk Skyler back to be prepped for the C-section.
– They have me carry our bags to the room we will be staying in and change into scrubs.
– They then bring me to a room to wait and I’m told once they have Skyler prepped and the doctor is ready for surgery they will bring me into the operating room.
Ok… you are caught up, I did leave out the part where the staff had a fake baby in our room because they did training with it but forgot to take it with them… These nurses about had to bring me back to life from a heart attack because it caught me so off guard when I tossed a bag and the fake baby appeared underneath where it landed.
Well, I am waiting in the area outside the operating room, I’m told it will be about 10-15 minutes.
I needed to pray.
“ Lord, I thank you for this day. I thank you for the opportunity to be a dad and a husband and for watching over our family. Father, I want to pray for our parents who love us so dearly and who shower Sawyer and we know soon Remi with so much affection, love and care. Thank you for my sisters Cassidy, Chelsey, and Whitney and her husband David who have reached out and are just as excited for Remi’s birth as anyone. Father, thank you for my sister-n-law April and her husband Matt who adore Sawyer and who are keeping her for us while Remi is being born. Knowing she is with them lowers our anxiety and though we miss her we know she is in great hands and having a blast. I thank you for Bo and Gaile who aren’t just the best neighbors ever but a big part of our lives.
Father, I want to pray for the doctors and nurses and everyone who is in the operating room tending to Skyler and who will be tending to Remi today. I pray for clear minds and steady hands and I know that you will be with them and surrounding us all with your love and protection. I want to thank you for the millionth time for Skyler. I could not be more blessed to have her as my wife and mother of our kids. Lord I want to pray for Remi, for a healthy and strong baby. Thank you for your love, your grace and Son and it’s in Jesus name I pray, Amen.”
There is a meeting happening on the other side of the curtain in this waiting area. From the discussion, it seems to be skills training for the instruments used in surgery or what to grab in an emergency surgery situation. I am intrigued and listen so if I’m ever a nurse and need to use that skill-set, then I’m good to go. (I know not happening.)
A few minutes later after learning about the specific order to lay out my surgical tools…
I am told to pray for Skyler’s blood pressure. I am told through a presence felt around me, on me and inside me. I don’t hesitate, I close my eyes and pray,
“Father, I pray that Skyler is ok and her blood pressure is ok and that during the surgery it stays where it should. I know Father that with you working through the doctors that she will be ok and I thank you for them. Amen.”
I think for second that it was a bit odd because out of all things I would never think to just pray about blood pressure. I don’t think anything else of it and went back to my meeting, we were now on counting the instruments after surgery to make sure we have the same number as when we started.
A nurse pokes her head out of a room and calls me back.
I walk into the operating room. Skyler is with a blue tent around her lower half, surveying the room, I feel the presence that I felt earlier. I make my way to Skyler, trying to be funny I ask her, “Hey baby whatcha up to?”
She looks at me with concern and says,
“I almost blacked out my blood pressure dropped to 44/20. I was not ok.”
(Side note, a normal blood pressure is 120/80.)
My head went into slow motion. I look at her and remember only being able to say, “Oh that’s not good.”
(My mind is in the other room at the chair that I just prayed in and where the Holy Spirit moved to tell me what to do.)
I don’t remember the next 20 seconds to 2 minutes, time was warped in my mind. I was in many different places but most importantly I was trying to be whatever Skyler needed me to be at that moment. I kept thinking about the sensation I felt and the presence I feel around us. Just then the doctor put his hand on my shoulder and tells me, “She’s doing great.”
In my head, I tell myself “God has this.” I feel a smile creep on my face.
I almost started crying right then and there. God speaks to us in so many different ways and sometimes well honestly for me most of the time it’s not as clear as words in my head or inside me with an energy softly charging the space around me. No matter the type of communication though, I am always so overcome with emotion. There are tears of joy, love and thankfulness for our Heavenly Father that I can’t control. I had to hold this in right now because surgery has started.
Fast forward… All is well. Baby Remi and Skyler are both healthy and doing fantastic with great blood pressures.
I made sure multiple times to stop and give thanks to our good Father for everything that happened yesterday. Especially for His work in that operating room making sure Skyler was ok and in the right hands. Tears flowed down my face when I am headed to the cafeteria to find food. Those close to me may think I was just excited to eat and some tears of happiness were on my face. When actually they were tears from an emotion that I can’t explain. An emotion so full of love for God and his Son, Jesus. An emotion that comes from a relationship unlike any other. God is good and is a good good Father.